I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in a long while, I do not feel alone.
Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have let you see inside. Don’t want it troubling your mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I had said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in coming to the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere with its residents’ peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for many years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness soon after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.
Since I first became alert to the beautiful and awe-inspiring presence of Lord, I have enjoyed examining several wonderful spiritual performs just like the Bible (my favorite pieces are the Sermon on the Mount and Psalms), the Bhagavad-Gita, the Upanishads, the Koran and the poetry of Kabir and Rumi. Not one of them come close to the effectiveness of a Program in Miracles. Examining it having an open brain and center, your fears and difficulties clean away. You feel aware of a marvelous love deep within you – greater than anything you knew before. The future begins to look therefore bright for you personally and your liked ones. You’re feeling passion for every one including these you previously have tried to keep excluded. These experiences are very strong and at times toss you down balance only a little, but it’s worth it: A Program in Miracles presents one to a love therefore peaceful, so solid and therefore common – you will question how therefore most of the world’s religions, whose goal is allegedly an identical knowledge, got therefore down track.
I wish to claim here to any Religious who feels that his church’s teachings don’t really meet his thirst to learn a kind, merciful and caring Lord, but is somewhat scared to read the Program as a result of others’ states it is sporadic with “true” Christianity: Don’t fear! I have see the gospels many times and I assure you a Program in Miracles is wholly consistent with Jesus’ teachings while he was on earth. Don’t anxiety the fanatical defenders of exclusionist dogma – these poor people think themselves to be the only companies of Jesus’ information, and the sole people worth his blessings, while all the will go to hell. A Course in Miracles reflects Jesus’ correct concept: unconditional love for *all people*. While he was in the world, Jesus believed to decide a tree by their fruit. So give it a take to and see the way the fruits that ripen in your life taste. If they taste poor, you are able to abandon A Class in Miracles. But if they style as sweet as quarry do, and the countless other true seekers who have found A Program in Wonders to be nothing less than a heavenly prize, then congratulations – and might your center always be abundantly filled with calm, caring joy.